I have passed the bar in three jurisdictions and I cannot think of a single time I left the bar examination hall feeling confident I had passed. After my first bar exam, which was in New York, I spent almost an hour with other examinees sharing the exam experience, and all of us were fixated only on one question: Will I pass the bar exam?
The week after the exam is often the hardest. I have heard many examinees talk about vivid dreams where they realized the issues in a question they failed to spot, or panic that their analysis was incorrect. I can relate to those fears completely. After my February 2024 California Bar Exam, my third jurisdiction, I dreamed about the ConLaw essay at least three times that week, certain that I had failed the essay and therefore the entire exam.
However, passing or failing an exam is more than just missing out on issues in one essay or having made a few mistakes. The bar exam is so broad and so comprehensive. It tests our knowledge of almost 3000 legal rules, our ability to apply law to the facts with clarity under time pressure and also cuts us some slack in making mistakes. So, unless one is able to recall the entire exam and analyze their performance accurately there is literally no way to predict whether they have passed or failed the exam.
Yes, one could have a hunch, an intuition, a feeling. But I have often seen that also to be proven wrong. I have seen candidates who were certain that they had passed. But when the bar released questions and model answers, they were shocked to see missed issues or cursory analysis that lost them marks. The NCBE never releases their recent MBE questions and answers, so that score remains a big mystery to all of us.
Last year, a week after my third bar exam, I decided to stop pondering the dreaded question of whether I had passed. I made a plan and stuck with it: I would save all my notes and be prepared to retake in July, however, during March and April I would take time off from bar prep and focus on my other activities and relaxation techniques. I also picked out a restaurant which didn’t require reservations and where I planned a small celebration, partly so that I don’t spend March and April worried or anxious.
In May, on the day that the results came out, none of my relaxation techniques worked. That evening I logged into the portal 10 minutes early and my results had already been posted. I had passed! That Saturday, my sushi tasted heavenly.